Some of my posts are based on messages I offer at the Circle of Hope, Broad & Dauphin PMs, you can hear the original message here. Subscribe to the podcast here. Is it OK for a Christian to have a negative feeling and express it? That was a question I was pondering this week. In an intellectual sense, I know the answer: of course it’s OK! However, when it comes to actual expression, I get a little more hesitant. There were many moments this week where I felt discouraged, inadequate, and tired. Being a follower of Jesus is a real challenge sometimes. Some days you might feel exhausted, like you don’t have the energy or faith to proceed, like you aren’t even worthy of God’s grace and love. It could be a question of rationality; you don’t believe God exists. It could be about trauma, God has let so many bad things happen to you, you just can’t keep going. It could be a question of loneliness, you might not feel God’s presence. You might have faced too much persecution for an allegiance to Jesus that seems to be fleeting anyway, just a product of who you once were. You might be able to relate to this disillusionment, this depression, this acedia.